The first time I had a session with my trance medium was in 1995. I had no idea what to expect. After chanting AUM seven times, Phylos appeared, accompanied by Jeshua and John. I would only learn later who the latter two are. Here is the transcript:
Greetings to you, friend. My name is called Phylos. Our name is Phylos. I do not come here alone. For in attendance with me is another who is a guide for you whose name is Jeshua and another whose name is John. We blend our essences that we may commune with you. I, Phylos, am called Keeper of the Akashic Record. And that which is called Phylos is in fact an entity that may be called a collective consciousness: a group of many particles of consciousness which bands together to call itself Phylos. And joined are the other two who are in fact guides for you, even as I am not, although you are known to me.
We come here that we may speak with you on many matters. That which is called the Akashic record, which I keep, which we keep, is a record in light of all which was and is and shall be, all that exists as parallel to this that has been and was and all that is and shall be, and all that exists as potential which relates to this Universe. For everything in this Universe — and this Universe is a finite construct — exists now either as potential or in some form. And for those who are able to access and understand that form, they are given entrance, it might be said, into Akasha. You, also, have an insight into the Akashic Record, as it were. That part of you which is able to access the Akashic Record is called consciousness. And in accordance with the, shall we call it, level of awakening within your consciousness, you are able to perceive into the Record and thereby glean understanding and insight as it relates to your journey — your journey through life and your growth in consciousness. Guiding that growth in consciousness is spiritual force, some of which is named Jeshua and John.
You have been many times a cleric, monastic; many times living an ascetic existence prior to this incarnation and as a result there is a tendency which is strong in you to be alone, even in the company of others. As a result you, yourself, have developed a kind of mystical awareness — that is, to say, a desire to become more insightful and clearer about the unseen realities — and have some challenge and difficulty relating that interest to normal everyday existence. Indeed, however, you must understand some simple few things: that you are not here about the business of the normal and the everyday. For you have done much of that even more than a thousand years ago. Indeed, for thousands of years prior to that time of a thousand years ago you did carry out the affairs which might be said to be of a mainstream style of activity: life in the ordinary world, family and so forth; and that was a part of your spiritual path. But having gleaned much understanding from those incarnations — not only here on this earth but elsewhere as well — you came into the presence of many physical plane teachers and masters who stimulated an interest in moving forward further as a soul. And, as a result, subsequently sought a spiritual direction which, in a sense, separated you from the life of the mainstream whereby you took up many forms of learning and expression from science, to the arts and music and also into the realms of the mystical, about which you did write much even as far as two thousand years ago.
In this incarnation, however, there is much to be done. For you are seeking, what might be said, a completion of your affairs here in this dimension. This completion is not as easy as perhaps one might think, even for one of your soul's age and experience. Even though your soul is old and wise, and the path ahead is relatively simple, it is not easy. It is, in fact, a challenging one. You have attained and created many relationships and involvements — not only in this life but in many others — which, in some instances, you have facilitated and helped others — even as they have helped you — and, in some instances, created unfinished matters that need to be finished and even other matters which have created karmas, as it were, for which you must account or, shall we say, matters which must be cleared — ends which must be tied up — so that you are free to move on. Since you are in what might be termed a "final expression" here in this plane (which does not mean necessarily that this is your final incarnation, but certainly one of the final incarnations here in this world), then you have an extraordinary opportunity.
But you cannot view that opportunity with what we might term third-dimensional awareness or, that is, the veil that exists between the physical and spiritual planes must entirely disappear. And you must seek to more deeply embrace conscious contact with the Source of Existence and allow yourself, through the refinement of that contact, to be guided on a daily basis by that which will reveal itself to you within your own awareness, and allow yourself to be greatly influenced by the Supreme at work in this existence. It means letting go of other agendas, which shall be revealed to you that you might instead be about the business of your completion and travel the road of your happy destiny. And with all of the obstacles that may stand in the way, coming to set those affairs into completion and closure so that you are free to move forward as your soul is meant to. It is toward that end which we come here to address the specific matters of concerns as relate to that forward movement. And, so, if you would have us do so, we will address those matters of concern in your life whether they be of seeming material import or questions of spiritual and philosophical nature. We come here that we may facilitate that movement, if you would have us. So, at this time, if you wish, we will address your questions if you will care to address them to us.
I'm very happy to meet you Phylos and Jeshua and John. Yes. This is a very meaningful experience for me. Yes. And I appreciate everything that you said. You are welcome, friend. I do have some questions, but what you've said already answers many things. And I think I already knew those things (Yes) in my heart but my mind confuses me. Yes. My main question is: I have said in my heart that I want to serve the Spirit, that that's my number one goal in my life, but in the year or so since, I've realized that part of me really isn't willing and is holding back. And perhaps I'm not yet even worthy in some ways to serve the Spirit. And yet there's no doubt in my mind that that's the only goal worth following. So, I'm wondering what concrete step is my next step toward becoming worthy and willing to serve the Spirit. It's especially relevant now because my life situation has changed very much and I have a great opportunity to make choices now that could affect the rest of my life. There are so many things that I could do and I need guidance on what would be best for me.
The pain you are experiencing as a result of being at such a turning point is indeed an important part of the next step.
First, we must say there are many dimensions to the journey which lies ahead; no single step is necessary but many shall become clear and a little shall be revealed each day — never more than what you are able to embark upon.
It is important, also, that you understand (or that at least you know) that we already find you willing and worthy. Perhaps what you mean by not knowing if you feel worthy and willing is that you may not feel capable or you may not feel the ability or the power to take the steps which sometimes you feel are necessary — and that indeed is a characteristic that shall never disappear. For the power needed to go forward shall never be contained within the current construct of your psyche. But you will have to reach beyond the construct of your psyche. That is, power — spiritual power — or the power which comes from your spirit nature, comes from a series of experiences and identifications with experience and knowledge from which is attached a certain amount of strength, and which is given to you through your psyche by your identification with those ideals, principles and experiences. When it comes to the journey, that is an infinite one, many before you, including ourselves, have had to do exactly what we shall now tell you.
We have had to develop and refine a conscious contact with the Source of Existence which was the solution to our problem. Then, after developing and refining that contact, seeking t's guidance for us including a continual and frequent prayer. Not only for guidance, which is important, but for the power to take the necessary steps — the necessary steps as they are revealed — using the spirituality which we have found in our hearts to take the necessary steps as revealed, actually made it far simpler than anything we could have otherwise imagined. And through those workings we were gradually able, not only to have an increasing spiritual awakening, a spiritual experience from which we derived the ability to see and move forward.
This has already begun for you. Yet, you cause yourself some unnecessary grief — even though some fears and doubts shall arise which are inevitable and unavoidable — you cause yourself unnecessary grief — by trying to get an understanding of the whole picture when that shall rarely occur. But instead, only ask for what shall be the next step. Sometimes what is expected as the next step may still be, unwittingly, a desire for too many steps — unnecessary requirements — which seem required in your mind, may cause you not to be available to understanding just what the next step is. And so, the next step can often be approached on a daily basis in the following manner.
First, daily, before taking one foot out of the bed, simply lay there before rising for a few moments and allow your body to physically relax and your spirit to remain gentle. In the gentleness, which is simply a relaxed breath and a relaxed body, that is the presence of spirit. In that presence of spirit, ask of the Creator to receive all of you, as you are now, saying:
I am now willing for that: for you to receive all of me, as I am, whether I think it is good or bad. And, having received all of me, give me the power to take the necessary steps to serve the Spirit and to understand Your message to me. Guide me and give me the strength to go forward from here to express as Your agent in the world.
Then, resonate in that vibration for a moment or two.
Then, upon rising, as you go throughout your day, sometimes you will find you will need to frequently ask direction. For you will feel sometimes automatically knowing of what is right for you. But sometimes you will come across experiences which leave you baffled, confused, or sometimes hurting and doubtful that you are on the right road. When that occurs, that is the time to seek further direction. Otherwise, you are simply on your journey having asked earlier. But when you reach these points of confusion, that is the time for the next step. So, don't struggle looking for an answer at that time. Simply stop a moment and ask for an intuitive thought or a sign. Do not struggle seeking that sign or intuitive thought. It will come. Instead, simply ask for the thought or the sign and turn your thoughts to the helping of another and go about that business.
Then, as a working part of your mind it shall come automatically. Sometimes you will be aware of it. Indeed, most times you will be aware of it, at some point soon. But other times you will not be aware of it. That will be less frequent. So again, when met with obstacles which frustrate you, challenge you, or which you can find by ordinary means an answer, do not struggle with what is right. Simply ask for an intuitive thought or a sign. Turn your thoughts to the helping of another and go forward.
Now, the reason why this must be done: For even though you are a deeply spiritual soul which is already intertwined with the highest and therefore guided by the highest, even ones such as you can become, without realizing it, enormously self-centered. Self-centered even for the most noble of ends. That is, always wondering: What shall I do. What is right for me. How can I get the most for this. What is best for me. And so forth. And this, with yourself at the center of existence, is a kind of bondage which can become tiresome, if not obsessional.
And that keeps one from opening up to that which is beyond the concerns around one's own psyche. And in order to do this, this must be worked out on an altruistic plane — which is a spiritual plane — that is, coming outside of self in service to the Source or others, and this turning to the thought of helping another and asking for the guidance will cause the psyche to open and at a time when you are not self-concerned it will flow into you. And this is why you must not struggle seeking the answer. But instead allow it to be worked out on an altruistic plane by putting yourself in the motion of helping another by turning your intention to that direction. And, increasingly you shall not only find yourself free and joyous and happy but you shall see how many ties and bonds you have to a self-centered focus; and in that way take steps to be free of that as you are revealed how to do that. Many times each day, all throughout each day; each day, giving up the little bonds that tie you to that you do not wish to be tied to; suddenly finding yourself free, increasingly, day by day. And power that was otherwise wasted in ways you could not have imagined you were wasting it will then flow into you in the direction that the Spirit, which has intertwined with your nature, is inspiring you.
And, rather than not having the energy or the vision to be able to proceed forward you shall instead be sucked up into the winds and flows of your higher nature and gradually be cut off — and in some instances not so gradually; in many instances, quite abruptly — cut off, from that which you are tied, which keeps you from being free and one with your purpose. And pushed by the winds of the Spirit into unexpected directions which bring about your fulfillment in ways decidedly different than you would have planned and completely in harmony with who you really are.
For if you could have understood or if you could really understand just what it is you are here to be doing, exactly, by your own intellectual seeking, you would have found this by now. And, if you were capable of clearly understanding it, we could explain it to you. But since it exists outside of the context of your psyche to grasp, we cannot fully explain it to you.
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...which will and do occur on a daily basis in your life. And from that awakening you will gradually come to see or perhaps suddenly come to see in many stages.
Now, we are able to tell you some things about the nature of the shiftings we speak of, but more will be revealed to you directly on a day-to-day basis as a result of your conscious contacts with the Source of Existence Itself.
For example, you have for some time understood that you need to leave the place where you now live. Yet, the circumstances and the conditions surrounding that may seem too binding and complex. But you rightly have received that intuition. But the route by which that can take place cannot fully be revealed so long — rather, it is attempted at this point to be revealed —but so long as you have certain conditions and created certain causes which inspire those conditions, you have a number of requirements which you imagine you need must be resolved before that is possible and those requirements stand in the way of your seeing what actually needs to be done.
So, on a daily basis — if you are seeking in the manner we described — systematically you will be guided to such circumstances as you will see differently. You will not hold the same requirements and in some instances be freed from them and shown other opportunities. And you will see that those requirements were only based upon fears of what you need to survive, when in fact those fears shall be replaced by a dependency on the Supreme rather than on the world.
This dependency can only be manifested by your being further connected to the power which now seeks to enter into your being. And rather than being dependent upon the circumstances which you imagine are needed to survive, you will be dependent upon the Supreme employer, which is the position that is the right position for you. This is possible, yet the fears and doubts related to it must be systematically chopped away. "Surrender" simply means the mere willingness to put yourself in the position to recognize further what those fears are and allowing them to be replaced by the experience of being in contact with a power greater than those fears. And that is how the closure takes place.
So again, in the morning, let there be this meditation. In the afternoon, or in the day, let you seek guidance that it may come through your consciousness when you seek it. And thereby your contact will grow in its refinement. And in the evening a final meditation just prior to sleep, for but a few moments, in a laying position, if you desire. And after you become gentle in spirit, physically relaxed and calmed breath, the gentleness that is spirit shall come upon you. And in that, simply review your day. Briefly, looking at where you may have done better in certain ways that are important to you. And where you see that, ask the Spirit to guide your future actions in that regard. And, in this way, you will you make a kind of daily accounting which will save you from creating great wreckage for which you must later account, or in some way put in order, which will tie you up and slow you down.
Indeed, some of what is keeping you physically where you are when the urge to move is upon you is because you are managing matters which you have created which now have tied you down, some of which you must be free of. Some of this we can take care of for you, but others you must be willing to set in order — set your affairs in order — according to the guidance you receive, the best you are able to understand that guidance.
Your willingness to account for what you have created plus your willingness to keep turning to your inner connection to help you complete it, is exactly what your spiritual path is. The miraculous shall occur from day to day. And increasingly you will feel less bound to the obligations and commitments which you feel you must honor, even though those obligations and commitments may not have come from your highest place, but your current sense of what is so.
You are currently being guided to a clearer, higher sense of what is so, that may be called fourth-dimensional awareness. A path you have been on for a long time, but now one you are ready for a magnificent breakthrough where you shall experience yourself rocketing into a fourth dimension of existence whereby you shall find yourself empowered in another way than you have already. And this has begun, and what has in fact begun to free you from the past, so that you are free to move forward.
There, I know, are many questions and I have been wordy. I will seek to be brief but this was essential for us to share with you.
Thank you. Yes, you answered a lot of my questions automatically. Yes. My other ones... One that you've already answered in effect but has preoccupied my mind — and maybe you could ease my mind a bit — is on the question of a relationship with a woman and whether I should put any energy into creating that reality. I have a dilemma between knowing that I create my own reality (yes) and knowing that... Well, I think you know what I mean. Do you have any advice for me about... Yes, we very much do. It is a question of what my intent should be. Yes, let us bring another who is more able to address those concerns. Blessings are with you, beloved friend. Thank you. Goodbye for now. Goodbye.